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Sunday, July 02, 2006

I'm Baaaaaaack!

Actually, I've been back for a while. I just haven't written yet.

The reason why is that I wanted to talk about my trip; I just didn't know quite how to do it. In my last post I said that I would be going out of town for about a week. The thing I didn't tell you was that it was
pretty far out of town.

I actually went on a mission trip to San Pedro Sula, Honduras, and I loved it.

We stayed at an orphanage called Faith Home that is run by Baptist missionaries for abandoned and abused children. There were about 90-100 kids who resided there. This place puts these children through the sixth grade (which is like a high school diploma here in the U.S.), teaching them Spanish as well as English, helps them decide what they want to do after that, and then helps them with public school or work or college or whatever else they need. It sets these kids up for a brighter future instead of one of extreme poverty like the majority Honduran citizens are in. These children are actually seen as spoiled by Honduran standards, which is pretty crazy if you think about our definition of spoiled here.


I cannot tell you how much I enjoyed getting to spend time with the kids there. We got to do Bible School with them, play games with them, and go to church services with them. Hearing them sing in church was one of the highlights of the whole trip, too.

I absolutely loved all of them and wanted to take several home with me. And it's not like they were all perfect little angels; they were mostly just normal kids who went to school and played and laughed and occasionally got in trouble. But to see them in this positive environment knowing what they had previously been through just really touched my heart. It made me feel for the many children out there that we don't know about who get abandoned or abused and can't get away from it like these kids did.

During the course of the week, we also went to public schools for Bible School. They were pretty different than our schools here. The school was fenced in with a guard at the gate because kids who didn't go to school there were hanging onto the fence wanting to get in. There was also no air conditioning. For recess, there was usually one big concrete slab in the middle of the school where they played different sports, but that was all the recess equipment they had.

Each school had a small concession stand called a pulperia where they could buy sodas or snacks. In order to save the glass bottle for money, the pulperia poored sodas into plastic bags for the kids to drink, so it was common to see kids running around with a little plastic bag full of water or soda in their hand. The classes were also pretty large compared to ours. Most of them had up to 60 kids per teacher.

Something that was interesting to me about education in Honduras was that if a child doesn't complete the sixth grade by the time they are 18, then none of their schooling counts. They are just seen as uneducated, and there is no way for them to go back and complete it once they turn 18.

One girl at Faith Home was 15 and only in the second grade, so there was no way that she would have been able to complete the sixth grade by the time she was 18. So the house parents there were teaching her how to clean and cook and take care of chilren, so that she could be a housekeeper whenever she got out on her own.

The area that we stayed was extremely beautiful, too. The grounds of Faith Home were in a valley in between Mountains and waking up to that every morning was amazing. I'll try to post some pictures of it soon.

Overall, this trip was something that will forever be special to me. I can't explain how it felt to be down there in the midst of it all. It was eye-opening and it gave me perspective. I felt just how small I was in the world, but at the same time that I could still make a difference. Me and my problems didn't seem like such a big deal anymore, because helping these people and showing them love was more important.

I have a quote written down from Bono of U2 and it kept running through my mind more and more as the trip progressed. He said, "What more could you do with your life than change the world, make it a better place." I felt like that's what I was doing, that that's what I could do and that's what I wanted to do.

This trip was humbling and heartbreaking and amazing and a million other things all at the same time. And I loved every bit of it.

I had a hard time trying to write a post about this trip because it is something that is very special to me. I felt like I couldn't do it justice with words. And maybe I really can't, but I do want to be sure and write something about it since it meant so much to me.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Random

It's Random Topic Wednesday!

*begin randomness*

The new Dixie Chicks album is awesome. I purchased it a couple of weeks ago and it has definitely lived up to my expectations. The very first song on the album, The Long Way Around, really caught my attention with the very first verse: "My friends from high school, Married their high school boyfriends. Moved into houses, in the same ZIP code where their parents lived, but I, I could never follow." Honestly, I am almost surrounded by people like that. And there's nothing wrong with it, but after looking at it every day for so long, sometimes I begin to wonder if there's something wrong with me. So this song is just a reminder to me that "taking the long way around" isn't a bad thing. I don't mind being different. I feel like there's things in store for me in the future that might only happen because of the paths that I've chosen for myself. Anyways, lol. This random topic was a little long.

I finally got to see This Day & Age in concert! It was great, too! I love getting to see people or bands live after you've been listening to their music for a while. These guys definitely didn't disappoint, either.

I'm out of school for the summer! Yay! But I'm working a lot more than I thought I would. Blah!

Boys are confusing. Seriously. But I will never admit that (except for just then).

Sometimes when you're really close to a person, they can do something really small and it ends up really hurting your feelings because you didn't expect that from them since they're so close to you. But maybe you do it to other people, too, without realizing it. I need to pay better attention to that, myself.

I'm actually going out of town tomorrow for about a week! It should be fun.

*end of randomness*


Saturday, May 13, 2006

Less Than 2 Weeks This Time :)

Soooo finals are over! Yay! I know, I know; they were over last week, but I'm still recovering.

I graduate in ONE year and that is freaking me out. I've always been in school. School is always what I have done. Since I was 5 years old that's been my "job," and now (in a year) I'm going to have to change that.

Lots of questions come to mind whenever I think about it. What will I do? Where will I live? Will I be happy? What if I hate it? What kind of grown-up will I be? lol

I know it's probably too soon for me to freak out like this, and it's not on my mind all the time, but these things do pop up once in a while and it does kind of scare me.

It also makes me think that time passes by too fast. I always catch myself when I'm going to say something like, "I wish it was tomorrow," or "I wish this week would just be over," because some day I will wish for those days to come back.

I try to remind myself to remember now. To live in the present and try to make moments now instead of living from what happened then to what's going to happen in the future.

Sometimes I look back and wonder if I remembered as much as I could from when I was younger. My grandma, whom I loved dearly and lost when I was 13; do I remember her well enough? Am I going to be able to tell my children all about her? Am I doing a good job with my nieces right now? Do I stop and just enjoy the moments that I have with them and remember just how they are now so that I won't forget and will always appreciate them? Hopefully I am doing all of this.

I'm not sure if this post makes sense. lol I just typed as I thought. Maybe it's the end of the year sentimental stuff.

Monday, May 01, 2006

An Announcement

*BEEEEEEP*

We interrupt this current blogging schedule to inform you that Terry is currently right smack in the middle of finals week and will not be blogging after this message for at least a few days.

Thank you for your time.

*BEEEEEEP*

(HA-HA Lance! 11:56! I posted in less than two weeks. :P )

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

My Explanation For Not Posting For Two Weeks...

...Not really. Ha! Gotcha! Sorry, but I had to draw you in somehow! Forgive me? Good. Let's move on.

I had an interview for this scholarship yesterday and I was SO nervous!

It's not like it was a huge sum of money that would pay for my whole college career or anything, but just the way it was set up was nerve-racking. I walked into a room with a HUGE conference table (okay okay, so it was like fit for 8 or 10 people; it seemed the length of a football field!) and a professional looking person sitting at each place, except for the very head of the table. They saved that spot for me. How nice, huh?

I think I did well. I just have this thing where whenever I get nervous like that my voice starts to shake when I'm talking and I sound like I'm going to cry even though I'm really not.

But! I mean on the bright side, maybe they thought that I was going to cry and so I was showing how emotionally attached I was to my career choices and all...? Maybe? Yes? No? Okay, you're not help.

Anywho, it did go well overall. They seemed to receive me well and I even had them laughing toward the end of the interview (not at me, with me -- I know what you were thinking!). I just wish I could remember what I answered to their last few questions because honestly, I don't even remember what those questions were.

Oh well! Hopefully they saw that I was just a little nervous but still honest and sincere about my answers.

In other news, (well it's not technically breaking news or anything; it happened a while back), The Rocket Summer got signed to Island/Def Jam recording company. This is like the recording label that Jay-Z and Kanye West are on! So hopefully his music will get out there and more and more people will get to enjoy it!

Aaaaaand...that is all. Thanks for stopping by!

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Violent Much?

Just because you're pretty doesn't mean you're nice.

lol

Saturday, April 01, 2006

Memoirs of a Geisha

Since the day that I saw the preview tothe movie Memoirs of a Geisha, I've wanted to see it. I didn't ever get the chance to see it in theatres, but recently I rented it to check it out.

I've always thought that geishas were completely beautiful in a mysterious, almost unhuman, doll-like way. I was interested when I first heard of them and wondered what exactly it was that they did. The wikipedia article that I linked explains a lot, but this movie expounds on it a great deal by putting the information into an actual story, a narrative, a memoir such as the title describes.

Part of the intrigue of this movie is that the subject is so different from our own Western views and norms. But mystery is also part of what a geisha is.

After looking into what exactly a geisha is and seeing this movie, it seems a bittersweet thing to be. On one side, you are a beautiful, talented, desirable, educated woman. But you are also a servant to the home you are a part of, your life basically is entertainment (for men mostly) where others make your decisions for you and you are the doll who carries those decisions out. This movie tells about those back and forth, good and bad parts of growing up in a geisha home and eventually becoming a geisha girl.

I loved this movie. I know it didn't get great reviews, and I'm not saying it couldn't be better, but overall I really enjoyed it. It's interesting and educational and different and beautiful. The aesthetics of this movie alone are worth watching the whole thing. Everything from the scenery to these beautiful women along with the music makes watching this movie a completely enjoyable experience.

But overall the sweet sadness of being so beautiful yet being so controlled is what lingers throughout the movie. To be a geisha is to be completely desirable and beautiful and mysterious and intriguing, but also completely not in control of your own life. To be completely wanted, but not able to have what you so desperately want.

While I did really love this movie, I admit that there could be some improvements. I won't spoil the story for anyone who hasn't seen it yet, but there could be more depth in certain aspects, such as more development of the romantic story. I have mixed feelings about that part, too though, because part of the love story is mysterious as well and maybe shouldn't be overtly explained.

All in all, I'd definitely recommend this movie. It's unique, interesting, and just pleasing to the eye to watch.